I believe that God has made me and all creatures.
Teach me, O my maker, to look upon my person and my abilities as your gifts,
So that I may trust your care for me. So that I may be delivered from jealousy and envy, So that I may see you hidden in my neighbor and there serve you with gladness.
Tonight, I open with an excerpt from the Deaconess litany. It is so comforting to me and I find it especially appropriate after the day’s events.
It was a wonderful start to the week, especially considering it was Labor day and a day I did indeed labor. However, I do not share this as a complaint, it was wonderful to labor in the way of learning. I enjoyed giving Dr. Ore a hard time and he said, “Well, it’s Labor day and on this day we labor; if they wanted no labor on the day they should’ve called it No Labor day.” Ha. Fun accompanying lesson.
Comm. Theory was great too. We discussed about meeting with our elders and part of me got nervous but I calmly reminded myself that my situation was not going to be like any one else’s in the class. I’m terribly excited to meet with a woman who deals with Huntington’s disease. A sad neurological disease but I’m looking forward to the growth that will come in this process of my educational learning. I’ve heard great things about this woman and I pray God will provide me the words to know what and when to speak and the patience I need to have in order to understand her.
Found the sheets I wanted to find for sharing in Doctrine II and ran into Prof. Reek before class. I actually ended up almost being late to Doc because I saw Prof. Groth and told him I may be in touch with his wife about my interaction with the interviewee. We chatted, a rushed conversation, due to my upcoming class, but it was wonderful. My heart melted. Literally. Prof. Groth told me I’m already doing the work and serving as a Deaconess, I just don’t have the office yet. Wow. Another specific point God has spoken through people around me to reaffirm me in this vocational choice I’ve taken to pursuing.
In another conversation I had with Prof. Holtorf, I described a friend of mine as having “quiet ambition.” My professor had prefaced by saying that this friend and I are similar and was looking to call it something specific and I blurted out us both having quiet ambition and he agreed with that. What led to that conversation and arrival of that description? I was kind of upset by a comment made in Doctrine class with hearing that for a person to go into ministry he or she needed to have a big ego. In my opinion ego is not necessarily a friendly word so I spoke up to say that wasn’t the most fitting choice of words to use. The professor then said a person needed to have lots of self confidence, which I agree about so much. If a person lacks self confidence, it could be much harder for the person to be able to do as much as they could be doing while serving in a ministry setting. My prof then asked if I was headed to be a teacher or DCE and I reminded him I was pre-Deaconess and he realized why I was not okay with the word ego being used. So that being said, I have no idea where I decided to put together quiet ambition but I did and my only explanation is God speaking through me. It’s my prayer that I’m able to have the patience and remember the times I need to have quiet ambition. Can’t wait to share this with my friend.
There are many other wonderful moments that occurred in this day…but alas I’ve run out of allotted time to type any more.
Thanks be to God for one of my favorite gifts to enjoy: fellowship. I enjoyed surprise calling Ellie and skyping with Grace. It was a beautiful end to a beautiful day.